The Start-Up of Me

I am on a quest to discover who I am and what my calling is in this life. The picture above is pretty much the way I feel about this journey....SCARED! I have never stepped too far out of my comfort zone and because of that I'm not able to do the things I feel I'm capable of doing.  This is my chance to find what it is I'm called to do and to learn the best way to give back to others.

"You know, it is a wonderful thing to be faithful, but a much greater thing to be both faithful and competent.  There is no particular virtue in being uninformed, certainly no virtue in ignorance.  When young people can acquire the skills, the techniques, and the knowledge of these times, and along with it have a spiritual commitment and a solid faith and cleanliness of life, there is nothing that you can’t achieve; nothing in righteousness or in reason."  (From an address given by Elder Richard L. Evans, to the young people at the Northwest Inland Division Gathered for Zion’s Camp, October 15, 1971)

I really like that quote from Elder Evans. It's even more true today than it was 44 years ago.  It is my time to acquire the skills and knowledge to achieve my goals. I have recently gone through the temple and felt the gentle love and kindness of the people and the spirit that are there. I have made that spiritual commitment and have an increased desire to do those things the Lord wants me to do so that I may be able to help those he wants me to.

I read Living Life as an Entrepreneurial Hero, by Jeff Sandefer, and I really enjoy the way he puts life lessons into perspective.  This also stirred excitement because the things he talks about are the things that I have felt, but don't know how to deal with....yet.

Jeff talks about what it means to live life as an entrepreneurial hero.  He says, "It means to live life as an adventure. It means digging deeply for your special talents and gifts, and discovering how to use them in ways that bring you great joy, enrich your life, and serve others." Those are the feelings in my heart, the feelings I don't yet know how to reach and develop. I am looking forward to finding those things. He also cautions, "But remember: pursue something where you have some sort of a natural gift, one that brings you great joy, one where you lose track of the hours spent in it, and one where you would practice for the sake of practice alone. Why? Because the road to mastery is a long and trying one". 

I have been praying for a way to figure out why I have this desire to become an entrepreneur. What could I possibly have to offer? How can I help others when I am barely able to help myself and my children? I have had a stupor of thought each and every time I think of what kind of business I could create. But I know there's something. I can feel it.